March 24, 2006

  • Waves
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    This location is the Gold Coast, one hour south of Brisbane, the city I lived in. 

    This is one of my all-time favorite pictures.  I took this in 2001, while studying abroad in Australia.  The two "kids" were some friends I met in my travels.  I was like a big brother to them. I guess I'm a big brother to many people.


     



    Waves have meant a lot to me, especially in the past few years.  They represent something to me - something about God's plan for me and my place in the world.  It's too sacred to speak of here... only in person can I speak of it, and even then, only in whispers by a crackling fire.

    But I want to post something that I saw on a friend's site.  It is actually an excerpt from a letter that my friend received from a friend.  I found it to be particularly encouraging, in light of my wave connection.



    "I was standing in front of the waves a lot, waiting for them to come and see if they can reach the spot where I stand. There I noticed one thing - the waves that made it to my feet often times are not the ones I see coming. The big roaring waves that I saw coming from afar actually faded before it came even close to my feet. But the small waves quietly but enduringly went all the way to me. Maybe related, maybe a bit stretched, but I'm reminded that for my slot in life and what I've been through (and will go through), God can work through this ordinary guy, this ordinary life and make a difference in others, where the "big waves" cannot get to."


    Amen.  It is a blessed reminder that God doesn't just work through the big guys, with the big names, but He desires and loves to work through the little people, the absolutely ordinary people, simple people just like me.  I am grateful for the time I have been given.  Amen.






March 16, 2006

  • It wasn't really that pink


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    but it was a nice day


     


    I am exhausted... I can't believe it's not Friday....what a week it has been.  Good, but tiring.


     

  • Impactful excerpts from No Man is an Island, by Thomas Merton.

    "Unselfish love
    that is poured out on a selfish object does not bring perfect
    happiness: not because love requires a return or a reward for loving,
    but because it rests in the happiness of the beloved."

    I have found this to be true, unfortunately, by experience. 
    There have been Adrogynous Nics whom I have loved and invested in, but
    it was like pouring a glass of water into the Grand Canyon.  There
    is a hole so large and so void in our hearts that it simply cannot be
    filled except by the love of our Lord Jesus Christ.  Sure, that
    glass of water that I bring to the Canyon might be a momentary
    distraction.  It might even seem like it's enough to get someone
    through the day, but come tomorrow, that canyon will be dry as a bone
    again.  What I bring is just not enough.  What any person
    brings, no matter who they are, cannot fill that void.  Until that
    void is filled, the person will never be happy...which is just stating
    the obvious.  Here's another obvious statement; the void can only
    be filled by Jesus.

    The love of Jesus is like 1000 Niagra Falls on 1000 planets in 1000
    star systems.  Unquenchable, unending, everlasting.  It makes
    the Grand Canyon look like a thimble trying to swallow the Hoover
    Dam.  There is no limit to that love.  When a person goes to receive
    the love of Christ, this hole is filled until it is overflowing with
    abundance.  That's it.  It doesn't get much more complicated
    than that.  But that reception of love must happen first, before
    anything else... and it must happen daily.  If we at any time stop
    going to Him to receive that love and look for it in another, it will
    be vanity.  Nothing will come of it.  The Grand Canyon will
    return and that hole will be as dry as dust.

    Jesus wants to love you.... you need to receive
    it.  Once that has happened, the little glass of water that I or
    anyone else brings will be the providential whip cream and a cherry on
    top.

    This hole in my heart that goes all the way to China
    You gotta fill it up with love before I fall inside

March 14, 2006

  • Another preview
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    Mutton Briyani served on Banana leaf.  (Not shown, mutton steak and mutton soup) Tekka Centre, Little India, Singapore

  • Impactful excerpts from No Man is an Island, by Thomas Merton.

    "There is no end to the sharing of love, and therefore, the potential of happiness of such love is without limit."

    I think more than intelligence, or talent, or creativity, or any other gift that I have been blessed with from the Lord, I value the capacity to love far, far above and beyond the rest.  Although intelligence or talent may give me opportunity to boast, the capacity to love has given me opportunities for joy

    There is truly something special and amazing about sharing love with
    someone, solely to bless them and to seek their good.  It is a
    priviledge.  I only wish I could put into words how much it means
    to me.  Everything else, food, games, movies, whatever... they are
    only temporary.  They are distractions at the least, and fleeting
    at best.  But love shared is forever.  It leaves an
    impression.  It has the power to shape our hearts and guide us
    towards beauty and ultimately, towards God. 

    I have not forgotten the love that has been shown to me. 
    Indeed, some acts of love have been so impactful that I would, and
    have, travelled around the world simply to share some of the love with
    those who have so graciously shared with me. 

    I have been telling people that I went to Singapore to attend two
    friends' wedding, but that was just the short answer.  The real
    answer is that these two friends of mine taught me by example how to
    love, and how to bring someone into community.  They were a living
    model of grace and love and I have been forever changed by the
    experience.  The passion of building community and caring for my
    neighbor came from these two friends of mine in Singapore, and seeing
    them again has only fueled that flame to burn even brighter, ever
    stronger.  I went to Singapore to thank them, to honor them, and
    to encourage them by telling them of the impact they have had on my
    life and, vicariously, the lives of so many others whom I have loved
    and cared for simply because of their example.  I think they were
    amazed and greatly encouraged to see the fruit of their labor extend so
    far.  I was blessed just to make them smile.

    I also went to serve them, helping them with wedding preparations
    and moving furniture and other little things.  Truthfully, these
    small acts of love were just as enjoyable, if not better, than eating
    all the exotic foods and seeing all the exciting sights.  I was
    filled with joy to love these friends of mine in this way.  It was
    an experience to remember.

    Apparently, it was not only memorable for me, but for the bride's
    parents as well.  They were quite impressed that I would come for
    their daughter's wedding and were quite taken with me.  I tried to
    explain to them that it was only the love of Jesus that could affect me
    so, that I would be compelled to travel for 37 hours just to get there,
    and another 30 just to get back.  I hope that they received the
    message and that the seeds were well planted.  I would love
    nothing more than to have played a small part to help her parents come
    to know Jesus.  And the circle of love goes round and round....

    What a joy it is to love, I say.

    And as Merton states here, there is no end to the sharing of
    love.  There is no limit to it.  And thusly, there is no
    limit to the joy that comes from a good and pure love.

March 13, 2006

  • Shipping not included


    Me:
    ...Yeah so, I can't really spend as much money anymore because I've decided to double my savings rate.
    Catechufem: Oh.  Is that because you have to make up for the cost of going to Singapore?

    Me:
    No.  It's so I can save up to buy a wife.
    Catechufem(surprised):  What?

    Me
    :  Yeah, I think after about ten years of saving, I should be
    able to afford one.  You think that sounds about right?  Or
    do you think I might be able to get one sooner?
    Catechufem(sarcastically):  Well, I guess that all depends on where you get her from.  Do you have to pay for shipping?

    Me
    : hahaha... I mean, I gotta save up for the ring, the car, the house... and all that stuff. 
    (thinks for a moment)
    Gosh... wives are so expensive!
    Catechufem:  You know, when FreakyJesusMusic and I got married, I told
    him not to buy me a ring.  I threatened him, "If you buy me a
    ring, I'll sell it and buy a bunch of books."

    Me
    (shocked):  Wow... are you serious?
    Catechufem:  Yeah, totally.  FreakyJesusMusic didn't get us any rings.  I ended up
    buying ourselves some inexpensive wedding bands recently
    for $40.

    Me
    : Man, you sevenuppies (code for feminazis) are pretty crazy.
    Catechufem (laughing):  Yup. We're a cheap date, but we'll make you pay for for the rest of your lives.

March 9, 2006

  • A preview of things to come



    Satay BBQ, at the newly opened Hawker's Market in the CBD, Singapore

  • Impactful excerpts from No Man is an Island, by Thomas Merton.

    "We will see that we are human, like everyone else, that we all
    have weaknessess and deficiencies, and that these limitations of ours
    play a most important part in all our lives.  It is because of
    them that we need others and others need us.  We are not all weak
    in the same spots, and so we supplement and complete one another, each
    one making up in himself for the lack in another."

     

    "My successes are not my own.  The way to them was prepared
    by others.  The fruit of my labors is not my own:  for I am
    preparing the way for the achievements of another.  Nor are my
    failures my own.  They may spring from the failure of another, but
    they are also compensated for by anothers achievement."

     

    "Therefore the meaning of my life is not to be looked for merely
    in the sum total of my achievements.  It is seen only in the
    complete integration of my achievements and failures with the
    achievements and failures of my own generation, and society, and
    time.  It is seen, above all, in my integration in the mystery of
    Christ."

     

    No man is an island, entire of itself;
    Every man is a piece of the continent, a part of the main.
           - John Donne

February 19, 2006

  • It's a fine country


    I am walking in a crowded mall with a group of friends, thinking happily to myself
    Me: You know, I'm having a lot of fun.  I'm so happy, I think I could start dancing.
    <Several friends shoot nervous looks at each other>
    Me <starts kicking and flailing arms in the air>: ha!
    Friend 1 <screaming in slow motion>: NOOOOOOOOOOOooooOOOOO!!!
    <Friends 1, 2 and 3 suddenly grab my arms and restrain me>
    Friend 1: You can't dance in Singapore! You'll get fined!
    Me: What? Are you serious?
    Friend 1: Yes!  Serious.  Remember yesterday we were walking around Chinatown and we saw the signs for "no dancing?"
    Me: Yeah... but I thought it was a joke...
    Friend 1: No lah! Not a joke!



     


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    I guess gum chewing isn't the only thing that's banned in Singapore.


     


    No, I can't dance, I can't talk.
    The only thing about me is the way I walk.

February 13, 2006

  • "Too many people overvalue what they are not and undervalue what they are."
     
    Malcom Forbes

    This has been very true in my
    life.  And it has become strikingly so with all the Peter and Paul
    nonsense.  Paul is who I wanted to be - in command, a man in
    control of his destiny.  He knew what he needed to do and he did
    it.  No fooling around.  Peter, on the other hand, just
    seemed clueless.  Passionate, but where does passion lead
    you?  To the bottom of the ocean.  Way to keep your eyes on
    Jesus, buddy.  But who am I to judge?  I have a feeling at
    the back of my mind that I am going to come back some day and eat these
    words of mine.  There is good in Peter.  Of course there
    is.  I just need to learn to value it.  I need to learn to
    value me.


    Good idea: waking up with a warm pillow in my arms
    Bad idea: waking up with a warm cold in my head the day before I fly out for vacation.